lara*

goodbye for good

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 06:30:24 GMT

I decided I'm deleting the link to livejournal on my laptop, along with a few other things. So I won't be writing in my lj or checking anyone else's lj ever again. You can talk to me if you want to know how I'm doing. Bye

Little 500

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 17:47:08 GMT

so, I am competing in the women's little 500 next year. How cool (and entirely unlike my normal self) is that?

feedback por favor

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 23:30:36 GMT

I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself the past two days. Yesterday was so wonderful and I realized that being myself is so much better than trying to be something that someone else wants me to be. I may say stupid stuff sometimes, but at least I make people laugh and let them know that I'm pretty light-hearted and caring. I like it this way. =)

Also, how long do you wait for the guy to call you after a date until you eventually give up? Somebody let me know!

and you never even notice

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 23:44:07 GMT

I was having a horrible dream, and then I realized I was awake.

I just want to go home.

Recents

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 09:28:42 GMT

Yesterday Jo, Janice, and I went to Lake Monroe and I ran, we played softball, and Jo hit golfballs into the lake. She almost hit this guy fishing in a boat; it was hilarious.

Today I went to the puppy store with Janice and then went over to watch movies at her house with Ashley and Amanda. Then we came back here and ate ice cream and played Mario Kart while blasting rap songs to wake our neighbors up. Then they got drunk and wanted to play dodgeball outside. It was cool...and I am still up!

Teresa hooked me up with this guy she knows from work. He just broke up with a cheerleader two weeks ago (haha). Anyway, he contacted me on facebook and asked me to hang out. I pretty much made my intentions clear in my response, so let's see if he even takes the time to answer.

I think we're going to Bryan Park tomorrow (aka the dog park) because it's supposed to be nice again. UNLIKE today in which it rained in the morning and then became hot and sunny in the afternoon and then a tornado came down and then huge freaking golfball hail that dented my car!

I know this sounds weird, but I really don't look forward to weekends anymore. I have too much time to think. =/

Sylvia Plath and the Lilly

Thu, 30 Mar 2006 01:53:54 GMT

Yesterday I went to the Lilly Library with my English class. I always thought that place was really lame because I never saw anyone go in there and no one ever seemed to know what mysteries (aka nothingness) it's doors held within. However, this library rocked! They have exhibits of all kinds of famous people! Here's the deal: I saw Sylvia Plath's HAIR!!! I got to flip through her diary and her baby book! She even kept a photo albumn of when she went to summer camp and we got to go through it all! We got to see all her drafts of the poem "Babysitters" which she had 9 of, just on regular pieces of paper with her cursive and marked out pen writings. She also used to do art work and she was really good at drawing fantasy figures like sleeping beauty. Anyway, I was pretty much drooling over this exhibit and the opportunity to flip through Plath's most intimate thoughts, especially considering she was a confessional poet.

Anyone who knows me will know how much I LOVED this and how I am now obsessed with the Lilly Library.

It's time to face the truth

Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:09:39 GMT

I can't do this whole thing anymore. I'm fine now and I have to say goodbye.

oh beautiful day

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 05:09:58 GMT

I met a guy today.

Also...I got my internship.

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 06:08:38 GMT

I'm pretty sure that no one reads this anymore. I think I'll just start writing in a journal.

love, me

daytime glances and midnight dances

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 05:06:50 GMT

I'm tired of this dull life filled with unhappenings.
I crave the midnight fresh air and the desire to dance all night.
I would go next door and ask that guy I've seen so many times to dance
and laugh
and maybe kiss me once.
But after a restless night, I would fall asleep in class
and regret my childish carelessness.

"will you call me tomorrow night?"
"probably not."

motion less

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:31:09 GMT

dead eyes
dead eyes live in between the lines, never coming up for air

she wears her heart on her sleeve because she knows it's more beautiful that anything else she has to offer

Ach, du

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 20:17:56 GMT

when she says she wants someone to love
I hope you know that she doesn't mean you

and when she breaks down and makes a sounds
you'll never hear her

I run when I get scared

Sun, 19 Mar 2006 07:45:36 GMT

Why is this weird?

And why am I so indifferent?

Prarie Skirts and Mardi Gra

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 06:14:47 GMT

Last night I went to the Melting Pot with my family. I had so much fun because it reminded me of how messed up my family really is. I love it though, I have to admit. I spent most of the night laughing. Let me give you a little picture:

me: everyone is making fun of me because I thought that some wheat cylos (big metal containers that hold grain) actually made popcorn.
michael: has spilt meat somehow on his collar and when he is informed of it, he reaches his tongue out to lick it off.
mom: is asking everyone why women get beads in New Orleans when they show their boobs.
dad: has his head in his hands and is shaking it in shame because we are all ignoring the waitress.

anyway, today my mom took me to American Eagle to spend my gift certificates because the spring line came out. She ended up letting me get a TON of stuff and ended up paying a lot over the gift card! I got a new skirt and the cutest purse and two new white camosoles and a blue t-shirt...oh and two pairs of adorable sandals made with satin straps! I am so exicted for it to warm up in b-town so I can wear everything! yaya!

Also, IU won tonight! They probably won't make it past Gongaza in the next round, but still.

Okay, I'm done...sometimes I find I just need to get this stuff out because I really want someone to know about the things I am so excited about! It doesn't even matter if no one reads this, I just want to say it. <3

my lova

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 03:49:07 GMT

This is who I love and why she makes me smile:

FiReFLy0470: wuddup my fool at the home base

~Don't go to Ghana my lova! stay with me here in the bridge, I will die of friendless boredom without you this summer!

Air force brats reunite

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 05:13:38 GMT

last night this guy that I went to elementary school with and "dated" in fourth grade got in touch with me through facebook. We all lived in Colorado Springs on the Air Force base then, so we were military brats. He moved to Japan right before fifth grade. He and I talked for a few hours over aim and he said that some of the old gang moved back there and they all stay in touch. So I contacted them all on facebook. I can't believe it's been like...12 years and we still all remember playing capture the flag in the woods and tag football and star wars on the slides. I wish I was a kid again so I could play all day with those guys. Maybe I'll go back for a summer visit and pick up Kelly in Texas on the way. That would make my summer more interesting.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 01:32:41 GMT

I don't have anyone to tell my random facts to, so I'm just going to put them here.

I made jello yesterday. I bought 2 boxes and I made one regularly and one with orange juice! I was too exicted to wait the full 4 hours for them to solidify, so I started eating them after only 3. But they were fine in my opinion.

I think I have an ulcer. My stomach has been hurting all the time now, especially at night...but I never did like going to sleep.

I watched this really funny episode of Parental Control and I wanted to call someone and tell them, but I'm sure no one really wants to hear about that anyway.

Yesterday I played with Megan's hedgehog marcello and now I really want a strange pet like that. I think that I should just not touch living things ever.

No one knows how I really feel, and I think I'm dying inside.

I want to go home

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 18:05:04 GMT

It was a month yesterday
...and all was quiet.

It's funny how I can remember the day it ended, but not the one it began. =/

Sun, 26 Feb 2006 04:41:41 GMT

I want to be unforgettable.

Imagine

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 05:44:14 GMT

This is my absolute favorite worship song. It makes me cry. I like it best by Mercy Me. This guy, James, that's a year older than me in our church at home sang it once in service and everyone cried because his voice is so beautiful and he sang it so wonderfully. My mom told my dad and I when I was home this past weekend that when she dies, she wants James to sing this song at her funeral.

"I Can Only Imagine"

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

Wed, 22 Feb 2006 00:03:06 GMT

"it's really hard to go through a break up and even harder to stay friends. But that person knows you better than anyone else. So if you can work through it, it's worth it in the end."

~#1 single person

hate mail

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 19:53:52 GMT

Dear 75% of the IU student body:

I HATE YOU!!! I told you we should support Davis and what do you do? The EXACT opposite!?!?! Now DJ White and Vaden are so mad at the school for not supporting the coach that they are going to transfer to wherever Davis is going to be picked up. LOOK WHAT YOU DID IU!!! You have not only caused us to lose a coach that kept us in the top ten (but no, that wasn't good enough for you pansies), you have also caused us to lose our two best players! Take a freaking bow! Oh and what? They have NO clue who is going to replace him? Nicely done, not thinking that one through before hand. Stupid idiots. And you call yoursleves true fans. No fan would wear the opposing team's colors to a HOME game just because you think we should be doing better! This is why you are given no authority. All I have to say is, next year when we suck worse and are ranked 20-something...don't you go crying about our coach because you screwed it over for yourself.

Man you are going to wish we had Davis back. Idiots.

Sincerely,
a true fan

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 06:56:26 GMT

My interview with NCIS went really well. I really think I did my best and I looked amazing in my dress suit with my hair done if I do say so myself! So, if I don't get the internship then I guess I just wasn't meant to have it. That's cool though, because I'll just work full time all summer since I really won't have anything else to do (or too many people that want to hang out with me), so maybe I can get some money. I'll find out for sure on March 24.

In other news, DJ White and Vaden are transferring from IU??? When did this happen? Killingsworth is going to be gone next year (I'm assuming, because it would be his 6th year if he stayed) and Ben Allen is only a freshman. All of this on top of losing Mike Davis as our coach, we are going to lose our standing entirely as a respectable basketball team! Now we won't even have basketball season to look forward too. We better have some really good recruits coming in or we are royally screwed.

I got TAGGED!!!

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 05:18:03 GMT

Post TEN random facts about you which only a few people know.
Then tag FIVE friends of your list to do the same.

1. If I never needed to sleep, I would stay up all night watching crime scene investigations.

2. I'm pretty sure I am ADD, but I also think it's the only thing that keeps me entertained.

3. I miss coxing and being on the water more than I could ever ever explain.

4. I wanted to cox the lightweight 8 in the Olympics.

5. I would never be where I am today without my belief in God.

6. I've always been bitter towards cheerleaders mainly because I was jealous of them.

7. I'm scared I miss out on what is right in front of me.

8. I get migraines a lot more often than I let people know because I don't want them to think something's wrong.

9. I hate people who constantly tap their brakes on the highway for no reason at all.

10. I collect antique handkerchiefs because I like the embroidery.

TAG: casey and stephanie! and that's it really =)

I won't wear black this year, but I'm still not wearing pink

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 06:17:49 GMT

1. Do you like anyone? Yes
2. Do they know it? Yes

IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU. . .
4. Had someone buy you something?: Yes
5. Bought something?: Yes
6. Gotten sick?: Yes
7. Been hugged?: Yes
8. Felt stupid?: YES…I’m just going to say IU bball starter
9. Talked to an ex? Yes
10. Missed someone: Yes
11. Failed a test: Nope, a quiz yes
12. Ate cereal: Yes
13. Danced crazy: Yes
14. Lied?: Yes

UNIQUE
16. Any nervous habits?: cracking my knuckles
17. Are you double jointed?: in my pinkie finger
18. Can you roll your tongue?: Yes
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: Yeah
20. Can you cross your eyes? Yes
21. Do you make your bed daily?: not daily

HAVE YOU EVER. . .
23. Said "I Love you" and meant it: I’m not sure
24. Given money to a homeless person?: Yeah
26. Waited all night for a phone call that never came?: I fallen asleep waiting
27. Snuck out?: Yes
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: Several times
29. Do you swear? I’m stopping
30. Do you ever spit? No, that’s gross
31. You cook your own food?: Sometimes
32. You do your own chores?: I guess
33. You like beef jerky?: No
34. You like Pepsi or coke?: I like them both, but Pepsi best
35. You're happy with your hair?: I think I might cut it
36. You own a dog?: At home
37. You spend your money wisely? Not when it comes to fast food
38. Do you like to swim?: Yeah it’s fun
39. Get bored when you call a friend?: I am easily distracted by visual things
40. Are you patient?: sometimes, but not always

DO YOU PREFER
41. Flowers or chocolate: BOTH
42. Gray or black?: Black
43. Color or black and white photos?: I love black and white photos!
44. Lust or love?: love
45. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles

N0N VALENTiNES DAY Q`S
1. Are you in a relationship?: No
2. If so, who with?
3. Sign? Scorpio
4. Do you believe in love at first sight?: No
5. What about true love?: Yes
6. Have you made out with casual people?: No
8. Do you look for one night stands?: Most definitely not
9. Do you enjoy receiving flowers?: Yes
10. Do you enjoy gifts from your girl/guy: Yeah, but I would rather spend it going somewhere with them

++VALENTINES QUESTIONS `!!++
1. You have a valentine planned out?: Yeah, I’m going to a singles dinner date with the girls at the house! We’re all going to cook!
2. Do you like having a valentine?: I love it
3. Does someone like you currently?: Yes
4. Are you even worried about the upcoming holiday?: Yes I am
7. Is a little kiss (peck on cheek) during school on vday sweet?: haha, yes I would like that
8. Why is this an important holiday to couples?: I think it’s probably important because it’s a day to look forward to, one that you know someone will express their love for you on. It will automatically be a good day for that person and everyone likes to feel loved.
9. Have you ever gotten something from someone on the day? Yeah