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Sunday, April 16th, 2006
2:27 am	goodbye for good I decided I'm deleting the link to livejournal on my laptop, along with a few other things. So I won't be writing in my lj or checking anyone else's lj ever again. You can talk to me if you want to know how I'm doing. Bye Current Mood: lost. and extremely sad/mad Current Music: in over my head (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
1:45 pm	Little 500 so, I am competing in the women's little 500 next year. How cool (and entirely unlike my normal self) is that? Current Mood: accomplished (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
7:25 pm	feedback por favor I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself the past two days. Yesterday was so wonderful and I realized that being myself is so much better than trying to be something that someone else wants me to be. I may say stupid stuff sometimes, but at least I make people laugh and let them know that I'm pretty light-hearted and caring. I like it this way. =) Also, how long do you wait for the guy to call you after a date until you eventually give up? Somebody let me know! Current Mood: cheerful (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
7:40 pm	and you never even notice I was having a horrible dream, and then I realized I was awake. I just want to go home. Current Mood: drunk Current Music: the tv (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 1st, 2006
4:17 am	Recents Yesterday Jo, Janice, and I went to Lake Monroe and I ran, we played softball, and Jo hit golfballs into the lake. She almost hit this guy fishing in a boat; it was hilarious. Today I went to the puppy store with Janice and then went over to watch movies at her house with Ashley and Amanda. Then we came back here and ate ice cream and played Mario Kart while blasting rap songs to wake our neighbors up. Then they got drunk and wanted to play dodgeball outside. It was cool...and I am still up! Teresa hooked me up with this guy she knows from work. He just broke up with a cheerleader two weeks ago (haha). Anyway, he contacted me on facebook and asked me to hang out. I pretty much made my intentions clear in my response, so let's see if he even takes the time to answer. I think we're going to Bryan Park tomorrow (aka the dog park) because it's supposed to be nice again. UNLIKE today in which it rained in the morning and then became hot and sunny in the afternoon and then a tornado came down and then huge freaking golfball hail that dented my car! I know this sounds weird, but I really don't look forward to weekends anymore. I have too much time to think. =/ Current Mood: sad Current Music: "show me what you're working with" (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 29th, 2006
8:38 pm	Sylvia Plath and the Lilly Yesterday I went to the Lilly Library with my English class. I always thought that place was really lame because I never saw anyone go in there and no one ever seemed to know what mysteries (aka nothingness) it's doors held within. However, this library rocked! They have exhibits of all kinds of famous people! Here's the deal: I saw Sylvia Plath's HAIR!!! I got to flip through her diary and her baby book! She even kept a photo albumn of when she went to summer camp and we got to go through it all! We got to see all her drafts of the poem "Babysitters" which she had 9 of, just on regular pieces of paper with her cursive and marked out pen writings. She also used to do art work and she was really good at drawing fantasy figures like sleeping beauty. Anyway, I was pretty much drooling over this exhibit and the opportunity to flip through Plath's most intimate thoughts, especially considering she was a confessional poet. Anyone who knows me will know how much I LOVED this and how I am now obsessed with the Lilly Library. Current Mood: chipper (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, March 26th, 2006
11:01 pm	It's time to face the truth I can't do this whole thing anymore. I'm fine now and I have to say goodbye. Current Music: you're beautiful (Comment on this)
Friday, March 24th, 2006
12:07 am	oh beautiful day I met a guy today. Also...I got my internship. Current Mood: giddy Current Music: "crash" - gwen stefani (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
1:06 am	I'm pretty sure that no one reads this anymore. I think I'll just start writing in a journal. love, me (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
11:43 pm	daytime glances and midnight dances I'm tired of this dull life filled with unhappenings. I crave the midnight fresh air and the desire to dance all night. I would go next door and ask that guy I've seen so many times to dance and laugh and maybe kiss me once. But after a restless night, I would fall asleep in class and regret my childish carelessness. "will you call me tomorrow night?" "probably not." Current Mood: awake Current Music: "on love in sadness" (Comment on this)
12:27 am	motion less dead eyes dead eyes live in between the lines, never coming up for air she wears her heart on her sleeve because she knows it's more beautiful that anything else she has to offer Current Mood: i just don't know (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
3:12 pm	Ach, du when she says she wants someone to love I hope you know that she doesn't mean you and when she breaks down and makes a sounds you'll never hear her Current Mood: indescribable Current Music: Howie Day (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
2:42 am	I run when I get scared Why is this weird? And why am I so indifferent? Current Mood: cold Current Music: love will find a way (Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
1:00 am	Prarie Skirts and Mardi Gra Last night I went to the Melting Pot with my family. I had so much fun because it reminded me of how messed up my family really is. I love it though, I have to admit. I spent most of the night laughing. Let me give you a little picture: me: everyone is making fun of me because I thought that some wheat cylos (big metal containers that hold grain) actually made popcorn. michael: has spilt meat somehow on his collar and when he is informed of it, he reaches his tongue out to lick it off. mom: is asking everyone why women get beads in New Orleans when they show their boobs. dad: has his head in his hands and is shaking it in shame because we are all ignoring the waitress. anyway, today my mom took me to American Eagle to spend my gift certificates because the spring line came out. She ended up letting me get a TON of stuff and ended up paying a lot over the gift card! I got a new skirt and the cutest purse and two new white camosoles and a blue t-shirt...oh and two pairs of adorable sandals made with satin straps! I am so exicted for it to warm up in b-town so I can wear everything! yaya! Also, IU won tonight! They probably won't make it past Gongaza in the next round, but still. Okay, I'm done...sometimes I find I just need to get this stuff out because I really want someone to know about the things I am so excited about! It doesn't even matter if no one reads this, I just want to say it. <3 Current Mood: giddy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
10:45 pm	my lova This is who I love and why she makes me smile: FiReFLy0470: wuddup my fool at the home base ~Don't go to Ghana my lova! stay with me here in the bridge, I will die of friendless boredom without you this summer! Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
12:01 am	Air force brats reunite last night this guy that I went to elementary school with and "dated" in fourth grade got in touch with me through facebook. We all lived in Colorado Springs on the Air Force base then, so we were military brats. He moved to Japan right before fifth grade. He and I talked for a few hours over aim and he said that some of the old gang moved back there and they all stay in touch. So I contacted them all on facebook. I can't believe it's been like...12 years and we still all remember playing capture the flag in the woods and tag football and star wars on the slides. I wish I was a kid again so I could play all day with those guys. Maybe I'll go back for a summer visit and pick up Kelly in Texas on the way. That would make my summer more interesting. (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 26th, 2006
8:06 pm	I don't have anyone to tell my random facts to, so I'm just going to put them here. I made jello yesterday. I bought 2 boxes and I made one regularly and one with orange juice! I was too exicted to wait the full 4 hours for them to solidify, so I started eating them after only 3. But they were fine in my opinion. I think I have an ulcer. My stomach has been hurting all the time now, especially at night...but I never did like going to sleep. I watched this really funny episode of Parental Control and I wanted to call someone and tell them, but I'm sure no one really wants to hear about that anyway. Yesterday I played with Megan's hedgehog marcello and now I really want a strange pet like that. I think that I should just not touch living things ever. No one knows how I really feel, and I think I'm dying inside. Current Mood: blank (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:02 pm	I want to go home It was a month yesterday ...and all was quiet. It's funny how I can remember the day it ended, but not the one it began. =/ (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 25th, 2006
11:41 pm	I want to be unforgettable. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006
12:40 am	Imagine This is my absolute favorite worship song. It makes me cry. I like it best by Mercy Me. This guy, James, that's a year older than me in our church at home sang it once in service and everyone cried because his voice is so beautiful and he sang it so wonderfully. My mom told my dad and I when I was home this past weekend that when she dies, she wants James to sing this song at her funeral. "I Can Only Imagine" I can only imagine What it will be like When I walk By your side I can only imagine What my eyes will see When your face Is before me I can only imagine [Chorus:] Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all I can only imagine I can only imagine When that day comes And I find myself Standing in the Son I can only imagine When all I will do Is forever Forever worship You I can only imagine [Chorus] I can only imagine [x2] I can only imagine When all I will do Is forever, forever worship you Current Mood: peaceful (1 Comment |Comment on this)